Thursday, April 17, 2025 - 11:08PM

 First before I forget, that charge is still coming up. I know its nothing, but last time I ignored it, I had bill collectors calling and sending letters in the mail so I wanna avoid that.

Thank you for taking time to talk with me again today. Its always my fav part of any Sinai visit. 

I checked the other therapy site again and it says they cater only to elderly patients, so I dunno what Lauren sees that I don't. I hate that i'm so rigid on this,maybe its my Asperger's/LD(im pretty sure it is and it's getting worse.), but I know in my heart what works for me&what doesn't. I just need to find what works soon,cause I feel myself spiraling. And I don't want to dump on"Nu-Gieselle"(ill work on the nickname)&theres no promise they'll be that good. I don't want to "just pick" someone...this is an important decision.

Hope I didn't go too too far overboard with that letter(we know I can talk.),but it was all truthful thoughts from the heart. I really do want you guys to get some reward, or at least an award. I wanna see all of you on the one social media feed I have while its sill active,haha. I really hope I didn't get anyone into trouble or put unwanted pressure or attention on anyone.

So you're really trying that hard to stay off S.I. huh? haha. Can you at least try for my Memorial Day race? That would mean more to me than the PD Walk. I wanna show everyone I can make it back from all of this madness.Not saying i'll run another marathon again(Sam has all but threatened to quit if I do&i value her as much as you,so ill have to slowly prove to her I can do it&beg her to believe in me,but thats at least a year&a half out)

Todays Question: Whats something about you that would embarrass any other person,but is totally normal/I own this/no big deal to you? For me,one of the many is my Straightedge-ness. I'm proud i've never done any of that stuff,others find it crazy.