Sunday, Jan. 4, 1:40pm

Yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be.

Late Friday night around 1145, I went to the bathroom to get ready for bed&noticed a blood spot on my left eye. I immediately freaked out cause I wasn't in any pain, didn't recall doing anything to it. It wasn't itchy or puffy or anything& I didn't wanna go to Dr. Google and freak myself out. I called my father who did use Google& said it's a "subconjunctival hemhorrage" which sounds terrifying,but according to him isn't? 

I still wanna get in touch wiy Dr. Quel but then I remembered I have that issue where my insurance is more useless than a dictionary at the White House. 

Spoke to Tav on Friday& she's working on getting that letter in. She's earned a well deserved box of cookies&hug if this works. I need it to work. Very much. 

I've already made up my mind& I'm dropping empire. I want to replace them with something good that you& everyone actually takes. I'm don't know how long it'll take to get a new company, but I can't imagine it being a quick process,so that letter is kinda crucial now.

The left arm keeps snapping out,the left hand tremor has kinda subsided but the fingers are still locking. The leg is ok. Toes curling just A lil. Right side! Arm ok,hands ok,fingers occasionally tight with small tremor. Leg,foot&toes are pretty good. I still have that intense falling back feeling. I'm still getting body shocks, in fact I just had 2 small ones. Last night I had a real violent one that made me drop my phone.