Wednesday, February 11,2026-11:25am

I've been uncomfortable all over since our last visit. I'm currently waiting with my father at the dermatologist in Union Square. Unfortunately, I can't make it upstairs to see Nataylia and Lizette because I need to be back on the island ASAP for an online meeting with Giselle. 

Last night I gave myself a scare. It has been mentioned by my father and Ruth that I seem skinnier than normal by a lot. When last I remember weighing myself mid summer (I don't see the need to constantly weigh myself as my weight had been, for the last few years always been between 150-158, which was fine by me.)

But once they noticed it, I noticed it. I weighed myself at 138 pounds. This was not good. It explains why the DBS device has started to hurt have why I can see the wires more. I started going down that panic hole and putting it altogether.

Loss of weight in a short period of time. Loss of hair, voice troubles, fatigue, loss of appetite, dry mouth..I was convinced(and in some ways still am), that it was Cancer. My mind always goes to the worst place first. My father said he was almost sure I didn't. But that's his job, to reassure me. I was supposed to see Sam last night and told her, knowing full well she can't make even a speculation of a diagnosis and she didn't, she just told me to get moving on that primary. 

After I got home, my father asked when I started my various in medications in correlation to when the symptoms really started. We ruled out everything you'd prescribed since the simple came way after. I'd been on Sinamet, Gocovri,Rytary,Candasartan&Rizatriptan for years now with no real issues. Then I went to the stuff Giselle prescribed&that came well after these symptoms. So that eliminated those. By then, there was really only one culprit. The Glycopyrate i was taking for the excessive sweating.

I had typed in my symptoms and"glycopyrate"into Google and was meet with a bunch of reddit posts about people who had pretty much the same reaction as I did, some worse, with one person basically saying it was easier to deal with looking like they had sex with a fire hose than freak when the weakness and looking like they'd give through 6 weeks of chemo. 

There were also posts from people who said it worked very well. But the ones that it didn't work too well for were telling me this might be a likely culprit. The posts also mentioned how it was not approved by the FDA, which sounds impossible as to how it can be prescribed... Also mentioned was it wasn't approved to use in the UK, who I always thought was in step with what we did. 

A hopeful answer in hand, we currently sit at the dermatologist office waiting for answers.

Upon getting home, I will ask my insurance to put Louis Emmer as my primary care physician. Id done some research between him and Shye Wortman. Emmer is the current plan. Still i don't know how soon I'll be able to schedule an appointment for blood work to be done. I haven't really had any done since right before the surgery. 

If it looks like it's gonna take a while, do you think you can order it?  

I get that this is the biggest of my many asks, especially in grave recent memory, but I need my mind to be put at ease here, and I can think of no better person to do it than you. That being said, I get it of you can't, or don't want to. I wouldn't force you to do anything you felt uncomfortable with. Your safety& care is paramount in all my decisions and I don't want to jeopardize that in any way whatsoever.