Thursday, may 7,2026,6:45pm

Heeeey..

We forgot to do the eval...I realized it was I was getting to the ferry.. Do you want me to come back tomorrow(or today as your likely reading this) or Monday? I don't want anyone to get in trouble. 

I don't mind. I kinda feel like we just jumped from Botox to birthday&slipped the important things. Stupid me, My fault. 

I hope I didn't overdo it or underdo it. I feel it might have been too much. I just... You mean a lot to me& work a ton, both at home I'm sure& at work def., that it feels like the only gift I want to give is relaxation. I dunno. It's not like I'm qualified to give a massage.(look I'm being inappropriate again. Hahah) (but that DC girl did say btwn the rigidity& tremors, I'd make a good massause. Hah.), I did a ton of research(as you know I would do.), and found the best, closest to work(I don't know where in Park Slope you are so I didn't look there, but if I did, is pick the best, but easiest to get to, my goal is to have you go no farther than you absolutely need to.)

How long should I likely have to wait till the Nurtec comes in? You sure my pharmacy won't fill it? Why do you think the riziatriptan stopped working? What if the Botox stops working? Are you sure you don't want to do Union sq? We also need to make the next Botox appointment... Shit I'm a needy bastard.

Ok, shooting for a half marathon for you might be tricky, even if it's October 2027.... How about a simple 5k, or just the PD unity walk next year? I'm still gonna try for the full marathon next Nov(again, 27... Decade since my last one.), but I'm not telling Sam yet. Hell I haven't ran in a year, so I need to get form back before Anything.

Can I get a referral to a back person, as well as an ENT.... My ears been kinda clogged and Dr. Morii(I don't care if I spelled his name wrong. He thought you were a man once. Hahaha) doesn't take Health first(the only one who hasn't.), but also told me I should see an ENT 2x a year.... Sorry about all the asks. I just know you(and Taz , who i still owe a cookie) (honestly... How were the new ones, other than astonishingly heavy?)get it done& I as always am eternally grateful. No referral for Sam this time as she wants the insurance to think she's focusing on the elbow so she's(on paper) gonna do that for now.

As you can tell, my anxiety is getting worse. And my mind won't stop just thinking. Of everything and anything. In a way it helps me sleep, because it puts my mind into overdrive& it just shuts down.

But I'm even thinking when I'm asleep, which is probably why my watch says my sleep is so poor. 

The aging discussion, both for me&my dad, is a big deal. The"how much is the PD playing a part in this...?"too, the job is an issue, the"holy crap, he's not my blood related dad"is coming up in my head more.

The only ppl I feel like I have a connection with are you, Brad&Sam. I feel like I can tell you 3 anything, but you can't see me anymore then you do (hell you probably have more than enough of me now)(and yeah you're not an official shrink). Brad is wrapping up with LSVT (also not an official shrink), so those visits are getting fewer. Sam is a PT, also not a T. 

Giselle, I can never get on a consistent schedule with. She's always departing or returning& the person she's got me seeing at her new place is not at all friendly, she's very"listen with a bored look& type even more bored& offer no help."and it's all online cause they're way up near Westchester, which I can't get to easily at all.

I need to see someone like Dr

O'Neal again. She was the most effective. I keep seeing all these people on Instagram talking about graduating the psych program, where are they? Haha. ...I need to see someone. Sigh. 

I'll shut up now.